Lifes Craziness

Its frustrating how when you think you have everything figured out and your life is finally on track, something happens that derails you. And even if it is only for a moment the ripple effects are similar to the aftershocks after an earth quake....

Point in question the double whammy that happened to me recently... Everything was going great, my journey of weightloss was going strong (working out & Eating really healthy) then BAM the bombs start falling.... Your Grandmother is in Palliative care and in the blink of an eye your mother needs a double lung transplant oh and in the next blink of an eye your grandmother dies.... How many things should you be expected to take in, in a matter of a few days. Like Holy Crap Batman.

So of course screw the healthy eating and no time for the gym and Hello to 10lbs that you thought were gone for good... Do you see where I'm getting here. And then of course these things don't just go away. No now there is planning for the future and what to do for my mom, dealing with her anxiety, dealing with my future mother in law who decides at the most innoportune moment to give me a lecture about my responsibilities.... No wonder stress levels go through the roof and Depression sets in....

I'm just not sure when it is going to end or even let up... How do I handle all this stuff, I'm not a strong person... I know that I need to rely on God, to help me through this. The Psalms tell us "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight" That path is looking pretty curvy right now. Oh well enough of my ranting for now.. Sleep! Glorious Sleep! Tomorrow will come soon enough. I just need to shut my eyes and dream my dreams and take a break from the nightmare that is my reality right now...